MY WRITING!

INTRO:

Every teenage girl has a dream. For some to be an ultra famous movie star. Others a pop princess maybe. Well for one girl, me, I wanted to despereatly break free from the mold of everyday teenage girls. This is the story of me, Autumn Tyler, and finding myself in the bleek world known as teenagerdom.



Chapter 1:

I yawned and rolled out of bed. I hit the snooze button on my alarm clock and got up, my oversized tee shirt and boxers were wrinkled from my late night rolling around in bed routine. I blinked a few times and looked in the mirror and groaned. My layered black hair was sticking up in every which way. I walked into the bathroom and prepared myself for a shower.

The water came out cold as I stepped in. I quickly washed and grabbed a towel. I wrapped it around my body and walked into my room and looked at the clock, it read 6:45.

" Shit!" I said to myself. I pulled out a black Taking Back Sunday shirt and a pair of ripped jeans.

The knees had a peice of black and white striped cloth in them so my knees weren't bare. I quickly got dressed and did my makeup and hair. I grabbed my bags and ran out to the car. I searched through my over sized bag known as my purse for my car keys. I smiled as I found them and started the car.

I backed out of the driveway and sped off to the school, which thankfully was only a few miles away. I parked my lovely junker of a car. I looked at the time. 6:56. ' Good I still have time.' I thought and opened my door. I drive a grey Dodge Neon. I kicked the door shut and ran into the school. I opened my locker and grabbed my first period books. I smiled and ran into class just as the bell rang. The teacher looked at me with a raised eyebrow.

" What can I say? I actually got here on time, Mr. Halloway." I said flipping my bangs out of my face.

I took a seat in front of all the preps, who just happened to color coordinate today. They all were wearing some variation of a pink and brown shirt and a pink miniskirt. I looked at my own black band tee and tight ripped jeans that I topped off with black converse hightops.

The preps groaned and threw paper wads at my head. I looked back at them sweetly and with my peirced bottom lip I snarled.

"Hey Carly," I said to the leader of them,

" I think I see a rather large blemish on your right cheek or is that the beauty mark the jocks were talking about?" Carly reached for her mirror and looked.

" I have no clue what beauty mark your talking about." she said with a matter of fact attitude. I raised an eyebrow.

" Oh your right! They were all saying that is was on your... what was the word... fat I believe...yes fat.. they were saying it was on your fat ass every time they saw it... which I believe is every Saturday for I think twenty dollars an hour." I said smiling.

She shot me a look and went back to looking for a zit. If you couldn't tell, I hated the preps. I picked on them every chance I could. If it was calling them sluts or whores I was happy to do it! Every time they were least expecting it and even the times they were I would make fun of them. I turned around. I looked at my blank notebook. ' I probably should take notes.' I thought and looked at the board and began to write down everything.



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After class, I waited for my friend by her locker. Lani came up.

" AUTUMN!" she said wildy. Leave it to my best friend to be crazy. She has beautiful chesnut brown mid back length hair, blue and green eyes, and a tan althletic body much like my own. Except she was much tanner.

"So Lan, we going to skate park still?" I asked.

" Yup!" she giggled and flipped a peice of hair out of her face. I smiled.

" Good! I don't want to have to go home to my older bro blaring his dumb rap music." I said running my black polished nails through my hair.

We waited by the lockers for Lily and Rory, my other best friends. They finally came running down the hall spray paint cans in hand.

" WE DID IT!!" Rory said smiling. I just blinked at them.

" You did what exactly?"

" We spray painted every prep's locker black!" Lily said quietly as a teacher passed.

I laughed. They had been planning this for like months. They actually did it, but I don't know how they got Carly's locker though she was always there inbetween classes staring at her self in the mirror, and talking to her "friends".

I heard a screech and the clicking of stomping high-heels on the linoleum floor. Carly was stomping over to us. She had four black lines sprayed across her face from the slits in her locker.

"YOU GUYS ARE SUCH LOSERS!!!!" she yelled.

" Well when you stop being a whore we'll stop being 'losers.'" I said with a sneer.

She grabbed a tissue out of her Prada bag and began trying to get the paint off. I noticed her left hand had black paint on it from when she must have slammed her locker shut. As she was smearing the paint on her face, several of her drones walked up. She smeared some paint under her eyes accidently.

" Like EWWWWWWW! Goth much?" Brittney, Carly's "best friend" said.

Brittney looked in her bag for a mirror and threw it to Carly. Carly took one look and screamed. Rory began to laugh hysterically.

"Did we mention that that paint was meant for cars?"

" So..."

" It only comes off in collisions."

I started to laugh.

" That'll be coming off on Saturday!! Or possibly later if she runs into any doors." I said still laughing.

One of the jocks who walked up with Brittney had to comment my remark.

" Looking like that.... Saturday probably doesn't have much hope."

Carly shot him a death stare.

" Jason, your my date on Saturday... remember?"

" OH... well sorry, football tryouts."

" No. Those were last Saturday because I had cheerleading."

" Oh... well Saturday it is..." he moaned as he walked away.

The preps began to walk away. I smiled and started to hum 'Shut Up' by Simple Plan. I bobbed my head to the music in my head and turned to my friends.

" Hot Topic is open 'til eleven, Carly!" Lily shouted after them. She opened her locker and threw her spray paint can in.

"You might not want to do that." Rory said.

" Why?" I asked.

" They're probably going to check lockers after this!" She said grabbing the cans and throwing them away.

" HEY!!! THOSE ARE PERFECTLY GOOD SPRAY CANS! Barely used!."

" Yeah. One, they were a dollar a peice and two, they are deffinetly not worth Saturday school."

We all nodded. Lani, Lily, Rory, and I all walked to our next class arm in arm. Thank God it was art class. We walked in the door before the bell rang. The art teacher turned on the radio. It was blaring our anthem ' I'm Not Okay' by MCR.

" Okay so... we got to practice tonight or tomorrow... other wise we'll suck at the gig on friday..." I said dipping my paintbrush in some water.

" Yeah I agree!" Lani said.

" So tonight at... my house..." Lily said with a nod and a smile.

Did I mention that we are a band known as This Lullaby after one of Rory's favorite Sarah Dessen books. Rory is the drummer, Lily and Lani are the guitarists and back up singers, I'm the lead singer and the bassist. We have this huge gig in Cleveland at the House of Blues... which is a HUGE improvement to our other gigs we had at the local YMCA. So I took out my cell and made a note of out practice.

I began to put my finishing touches on the painting of a girl with a guitar. It was a really good painting in my mind. I smiled as I put the last stroke on. Lani looked at it.

" Whoa!! Aut! She looks like you!"

I looked at it.

" Yeah she does. Doesn't she?" I said tilting my head.

I signed my name on the bottom.

This guy, Dylan Thomas, came over to me and Lani.

" So I hear you guys are playing at The House of Blues on Friday. How's you manage that?"

I smiled. I loved this story.

" Well we were doing our regular thing at the Y and I guess some manager was there and heard us playing and booked us as opening act for some band..."

He laughed.

" You guys will see me there! I love your song Spinning."

I nodded and turned to my friends. Dylan walked away.

Rory began to laugh.

" HE WAS CHECKING YOU OUT!!!"

" Dylan?! Ewwww NO WAY!"

Lani and Lily were laughing and looking over at Dylan, who was texting people on his cell. He looked at me and smiled and went back to what he was doing. I smiled and took my canvas over to the drying area. I set it down gently and walked back. I heard a soft singing sound. I opened my purse realizing it was my phone. I flipped it open and saw that I had a new text.



Autumn,

This is Thomas Caleb from Harvest Records. I can't wait to see you girls

on Friday. The Hannahs are the headliners... they listened to the demo you

gave me and said that they absolutely loved it!

Break a leg,

Thomas Caleb



I smiled as I read the message out loud to the girls. They shreiked. Harvest Records... wow... they gave us so many great bands not to mention influences. I heard Dylan laugh. I looked back. Lani was over there flirting up a storm. She was giggling... a screamer doesn't usually giggle. Well, we'll live...I can still scream!

I smiled. Lani didn't always like the guys around here. She was twisting a strand of hair and giggling. She handed Dylan her cell phone and vise versa. She dialed in her number and smiled. She walked over.

"Well he is definetly coming to our show! What about Alex and Davey? Are they coming?"

I sighed as my cell started to sing again. I looked. It was Alex, my boyfriend. He has perfect hair, perfect eyes, and he is gorgeous!!! I love the guy to death. I answered.

" Hey. I thought you were in class?"

" No... I'm in the bathroom... thought I would call you. Is that a problem?"

" Nah. It's fine. So you coming to the show?"

" Hell yeah! You know I wouldn't miss it for the world!" his enthusiasim sounded fake and forced.

I smiled. I knew he would come anyway. " Okay! Well I'll see you next period."

We hung up and the girls were looking at me.

" He's coming... what about Davey, Lily? Didn't you ask him out?"

" I did and he was at one of our other shows... can I use your phone to call him? Right now he is probably at home or he is out back..."

I nodded and handed her my phone. She smiled and dialed his number.

" Hello? Hi Davey!... You coming to the show?... REALLY?! YAY! See you there." she smiled. Rory looked kind of sad. She never asked a guy out. I hugged her.

" Its okay babe you'll find some one!" I said releasing her. She nodded and smiled. I smiled and laughed. Lani's sculputer looked like a cow... and it was supposed to be a turtle...totally different speicies.

" Lani? Why does your... uh..."

" It's gonna be a cow now." she smiled

I nodded and smiled. The bell rang and I waved to the girls and ran out to the front of the school where I usually met Alex. I saw him leaning against a tree. He flipped his black hair out of his face and smiled at me with his gorgeous smile. I ran up and hugged him.

"Hey kid." he said smiling and ruffling my hair.

"Hey babe!" I said smiling. Anytime I talked to him I was happy. He made me happy by just smiling. Amazing I swear. I hugged him. He seemed tense and unsure of something. I looked at him quizically.

" Alex, whats wrong?"

" Nothing... don't worry about it." he said kissing my cheek. I smiled and shrugged. If he wanted to tell me he would. We were honest to each other, well atleast I was honest to him.

" Okay... I can't wait until the show tonight... you backstage waiting for me... and cheering in the front row." I said smiling.

He frowned a little. " Yeah... can't wait." he said in a fake happy voice. ' I'm not going to say anything... not going to say anything.' I thought. I smiled and kissed his cheek. I looked up at him then at my watch.

" OH!! I have to get to class... see you later!" I said hugging him and then running into the building. I ran to class, just barely skidding in as the bell rang. I sat next to Rory and Lily. I frowned. Rory raised an eyebrow.

" What's wrong?"

I shrugged, my phone began to viberate. I flipped it open to find I had a new text, and guess who it was from? Yeah, Alex.



Hey kiddo,

I lied... there is something terribly wrong, and its

us. I love your shows and you. I'm sorry. I know I

shouldn't do this during school but I'm not going

to be backstage anymore.

love forever,

Alex

I blinked a bit. ' love forever'... he is the one who just said he wanted to break up! HOW CAN HE SAY THAT! I know this is a bit cliche but its a reply non the less. I typed in the words sadly.



Hey jackass,

How can you end your text with with love forever?

I mean if you honestly loved me you would have stayed

with me.

Hate you now,

Autumn

I sighed and got out of my chair. I couldn't believe it. He wouldn't be there, and I would be alone. Me and Rory alone. Normally it was the nervous-around- people- I-don't- know Lani and Rory but no. I walked out of the class room. My teacher was about to say something to me but just stopped when she noticed I was crying. I heard her do a smart remark though. I turned around hearing her.

" Hey, if you think I'm what you called a 'freak' then go screw yourself."

I notioned for Lily and Rory to follow me. They got up. The teacher stood there in shock. I got out of the room, tears streaming down my face. Lily wrapped her arms around me while Rory dabbed at my tears. We walked to the bathroom where we knew Lani would be. That is where she always was third period. I opened the door. Lani saw me crying and immediatly put out her cigeratte.

" Sweetie, what happened?" she said softly.

I mumbled softly. Lani looked at me not hearing what I said. I cried harder and said that Alex broke up with me. Lani just blinked still not understanding.

" She said Alex broke up with her." Lily said. We had grown up together and she could understand everything I said. As she said that I cried harder and harder. Every moment of mine that I had with Alex was ruined. I just couldn't believe it.

Here I am crying and next thing I know Lani is dragging Alex in the girls bathroom. Alex sees me crying I just look at him and lock myself in a stall. I hear Lani tisking him. Lily gets up.

" Alex... your probably wondering why your in our domain."

I can tell her nodded even if I couldn't see it.

"Well since you decided to break up with our lovely sister Autumn Mercedes Tyler we think that you don't even deserve to see the light of day-"

" But since we are some what descent people we aren't going to shove your head in a toliet." Rory said making Lily quiet down.

" Do you want to see what your darling 'love' looks like now?"

I heard her approach the stall. She grabbed a small part of a metal rod and yanked it a bit. The door opened up. I was sitting there crying, I'm sure my eyes were puffy and red. He just looked at me his soft silver eyes looked sad and somewhat sorry. I got up and looked him in the eyes. I got close to him. I slapped him right across the face.

He stepped back a bit.

" You know Autumn, that is what I love about you, your tough and a total babe." he said approaching me a bit. I growled at him.

" Autumn, I should have told you about this a while ago... but the whole relationship we've had was a mistake."

" Then why didn't you just stop it." I shouted. I grabbed the garbage bin and threw on his head so he couldn't see it.



Chapter 2:

People rushed around backstage. I stood there strumming a bit on my bass. Lani was sitting drinking a bottle of water. An important looking man walked up to me.

" Are you Autumn Tyler?"

I nodded blankly. He pushed his hand at me. I took it and shook it.

" Thomas Caleb of Harvest Records. It is a pleasure to meet you."

" You too." I said smiling as Rory, Lily, and Lani walked over.

" Who are these lovely ladies?" Thomas said looking at us.

" Oh, this is Rory she is a drummer, Lani is a screamer and guitarist, Lily is a singer and guitarist, and I play bass and I sing." I said with a smile.

Thomas held out his hand and the girls shook. I smiled. That was a first after what happened at school.

What happened after Alex was mobbed by us, was that he apologized and tried to get back with me. I rejected him. Then we took back his backstage pass. He said he was still coming to the show. The girls and I had gone back to my house, thinking school would be to drab. I took a hot shower and changed for the concert. I just loved to get ready for shows. The girls thought since I was now a single girl I should look amazing. So they dressed me. Rory did my hair, she added white tips. Lani picked the clothes. She picked out a bright green corset, I don't even remember buying that, and ripped jeans that had some green glitter paint smeared here and there. Lily. Lily did my makeup. Dark black eyeliner and masscara, neon green eyeshadow, and red lipstick. Then we dressed each other up in my clothes. Rory styling my black halter top that had a silver butterfly on it and a pair of tight jeans. Lily in a silver tube top and a black Glitterboy skirt. Lani in a outfit similar to mine, without the corset, she was in a tight blue tank top and jeans like mine except blue glitter paint. Lily did everyones make up just like mine in different colors.

I sat on a stool in our dressing room. This place was gorgeous I can't believe this. We were opening for a band that wasn't our favorite but it was a paying gig none the less. Everyone stopped rushing for a minute. Dylan walked backstage, he had two guys behind him that I reconized from school. Lani saw him and walked over to greet him.

" Wow! Lani you look amazing!" Dylan said kissing her on the cheek. I rolled my eyes as one of his friends looked me up and down. He was actually pretty cute. Rory was looking at one herself. He was blonde and had semi-long hair and thick rimmed, square lensed glasses. I sighed and nudged her. She leaned over so I could whisper.

" Go talk to him, Ror." she just nodded and pulled me up and took me over to the guys.

" Hey." she said to the blonde. He nodded in greeting. She looked back at me and I told notioned for her to continue talking.

" I'm Rory, I play drums."

" I'm Adam, Dylan kind of forced me to come... he said Lani gave him two extra passes so why not come." he smiled and I could tell Rory was loving it. Lily was behind me with Davey, her boyfriend. Rory and Adam were talking about some band. Dylan's friend just stood there leaning against the wall. I shrugged and walked over.

" Your friends are pretty flirtatious." he said. He flipped his brown hair out of his face to show gorgeous green eyes.

" Yeah, I know, this is the first time Lani and Lily had someone backstage for them other then crazed people. Rory usually has some family or something backstage."

" I'm Parker. So if thats Lani , thats Lily, and thats Rory, that means your Autumn, right?" I nodded.

" You listened to the demo?" he nodded. Leave it to me to remember us recording our names on the demo. Some stage hand opened our door.

" Ten until you girls need to be on stage!" they shouted with a Jersey accent. Parker smiled. " Can't wait." he said and walked out. Dylan kissed Lani on the cheek, Adam hugged Rory , and Davey kissed Lily full out. The other boys followed. I stood there looking out the door where Parker had left. Lani smiled and nudged me. I grabbed my bass and turned to the girls.

" You all ready?" I said trying to avoid their questions. They just nodded and followed me out to stage. I plugged my bass into the amp and looked out into the crowd, I saw the guys in the front row. Davey blew a kiss to Lily, Dylan winked at Lani, Adam and Parker just looked at me and Rory and gave us thumbs ups. The lights on the stage brightened.

" ARE YOU READY TO ROCK?!" I shouted into the mic. Everyone shouted out a yes. I looked to Rory who began to play. I followed.



Spinning around, around.

Can't let you down.

Won't let you drown in

these mistakes we've made.



Don't spin your promise in gold

Don't drown your love in cheap cologne

Don't kill the new cancer.



Spinning us around in a web like

we are some kind of bugs

We are teens and you shout at me that

I'm not a diva!



Don't spin your promise in gold

Don't drown your love in cheap cologne

Don't kill the new cancer.



The music faded as the song ended. We played four of our best songs and went backstage. I was sweating. I sat where I was before and drank from a water bottle. Dylan, Parker, Adam, and Davey all came backstage soon.

" You girls were great!" Dylan shouted hugging Lani. She giggled and hugged back. Our first big gig went great. Parker walked over to me.

" You were really great... was your song ' Maybe its just us' dedicated to someone?" I shook my head. " That's a surprise I thought it would have been dedicated to your boyfriend... Alex I think thats his name."

I raised an eyebrow. " I don't have a boyfriend. Well, I did but we broke up today..." I reached into my bag and found my favorite picture of Alex.

" Did you talk to a guy who looked like him?" Parker nodded. I cursed.

" Is he still here?" Parker nodded. " Will you take me to him?" he nodded again and grabbed my hand. We ran to the main area where the stage was.

We searched the crowd until Parker pointed to the lovely, Alex. I walked up to him, and he just happened to be talking to a girl, well not talking, more like flirting. I jabbed him the shoulder.

" Alex Anderson don't you ever tell anyone we are still going out! Escepcially after YOU broke up with ME!" I shouted at him. Parker was still gripping my hand. Alex looked at Parker.

" Wow, I shouldn't have broken up with you, I didn't think you would replace me in less than a day." he said smugly. I let go of Parker's hand.

" PARKER ISN'T REPLACING YOU ALEX!" I looked to Parker who looked at me like he thought we actually did hook up.

" Yeah then why are you holding his hand and all that sappy shit?"

" Because, Alex..." I said near tears.

" Because why, Autumn?"

" Alex... I would love you-" I said, Alex stopping me before I could finish.

" Hey pretty boy hear that she loves me." Parker just looked at me and cursed under his breathe. He turned to walk but I stopped him.

" Parker, he didn't let me finish. I was going to say I WOULD love him to go lie in a ditch and die." Parker just shrugge me off.

" Prove it Autumn. Prove to me that you we going to say that, because even if we did just meet today I want you to know that I really like you."

I smiled and looked to Alex. I punched him in the mouth making him get a fat lip. Parker looked at me and smiled.

" See. If I loved him I wouldn't have done that."

Parker hugged me. I blinked. This all seemed so familiar. We began to walk away. Alex shouted after us.

" AUTUMN!!! YOUR GOING TO BE SORRY YOU LEFT ME!"

I just flipped my hair at him and continued walking with my head on Parker's shoulder.

" Parker?"

" Hm?"

" Did you used to live in Avalon Trails?"

" I didn't think you would remember."

" How could I forget my first kiss?"

We stopped at the door to the dressing room. I opened the door. Davey, Lily, Lani, and Dylan were laughing at something. I looked around them to see Rory and Adam on the floor making out. I raised an eyebrow at Lani.

" They just started making out, this has been going on for three minutes."

" They're going to need air soon." As soon as I said that Adam released Rory. Rory looked up and saw us. Adam helped her up.

" Hey guys..." she said with a big smile.

We just laughed. Parker had his arm around my waist. I put on head on his shoulder and he simply kissed it. I smiled. I remember that night, my very first date. We were in eighth grade and Parker was my neighbor. He asked me to a dance and I obviously said yes. He walked me home and on the doorstep, well you can guess. Yeah he kissed me. It was one of those things that you see on TV. Girl meets boy, boy asks girl out, girl says yes, they dance, boy walks girl home, they stand on the doorstep for like five minutes not saying anything, then boy kisses girl and runs home.